Saturday, June 12, 2010

Vividly, 1st trip to hospital was quite blur
Was referred here and there
Consultation is done here
Scan is done there
Later bring back results here
Eventually, payment was needed to be made
I asked for transparency in the lump sum
They gave me that “do you think I even bother kinda face”
Fine!, Masters, was my replied
Almost had the impulse to ask, “any credit card promo?”
Next appointment date was fixed
Appointment card was issued
Unknowingly, I became a member of SGH (*no minimum spend required*)

On the 2nd trip, I was clearer where to go what to do
End of the day, at the same bus stop
I felt the similar emotion as the 1st trip
Super emo, devastated
Selfishly, nobody could understand how I feel
Why does it have to be me? What did i do?
From the neighbourhood doc to the x-ray clinic to the specialist and now to the pretty radiographer, they all said the same thing:
But you are only 23, still so young.
I feel like replying, perhaps God decided to play a joke on me?

On board the tram, sashayed a corner
I wanna be alone
Shunning from the public light, a gush of heat rose up to my cheeks and eyes
Uncontrollably, a tear or two were shed
Feel like meeting my cancer-stricken uncle
At least we are in the same boat
so naive, just to have someone share my plight
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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

This song below totally relates how I feel today:

David Choi – Uneasy



Don't like it when you hang out with him
You tell me that you're friends... I'm jealous
You say "I love you" and I'm the only one you'll kiss
And I'm the only one you'll miss... but I'm jealous

Oh my crazy imagination
Takes me in your shoes

He drives a better car
He's better lookin' than me
You get along so well
When you're with him I'm just someone else
I know this isn't true cuz I know it when I look at you
It's uneasy when I'm waiting for you

All the questions that I try to deny
They're hiding deep inside
I don't want it

It's so much worse when I can not see it hurt
Can I feel so insecure
Don't want it

Oh my crazy imagination
Takes me in your shoes

He drives a better car
He's better lookin' than me
You get along so well
When you're with him I'm just someone else
I know this isn't true cuz I know it when I look at you
It's uneasy when I'm waiting for you

It's an illusion I tell myself
It's so confusing so hard not to tell
Girl do you notice, girl can you see
What you're doing to me?

He drives a better car
He's better lookin' than me
You get along so well
When you're with him I'm just someone else
I know this isn't true cuz I know it when I look at you
It's uneasy when I'm waiting for you
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So much so, I’ve learnt my lesson…
I met Godma today, she said to hold on to you, coz to her, you seem to have a good heart!

Bro bought Jay’s latest album. Ultra nice, I like!

Drove past my primary school today with the barricades down, widening my view, only to discover that the whole building has been demolish. sobz... down went the memories contain within... i had feelings for it.... hummmm...

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Sunday, June 6, 2010

i vented my frustrations today. drenched under the rain, with tears streaming effortlessly, i shouted and yell like a mad women (can imagine how unglam my drenched hair was) in PUBLIC.

luckily it was at the back of a row of shophouses. and only 1 lady with tatoo saw it. i think she works at the nearby tatoo palor? maybe..

though it feels good.. but please dun do it again... phew... can't imagine how much turmoil i'm actually goin through.

i miss yesterday's celeb boot sale.. damn.. hope nothing much was missed. (dun feel bad my dear)

been super stressful at work till nothing seems to be moving.. hmmmm...

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